HELLO!! I'M BACK HERE! ANYONE MISSED ME ???? ><

It's finally the holidays and this year gonna be my year 3 for my poly life! THE LAST FREAKING YEAR!!!
That's surprisingly fast...i thought. I cant believe i have survived for the 2 years :p
I just hope that my results for my UT3 will be fineeee and goooodddd, hohohoh ><


Holiday is here and i should be happy...but the more i grow up, the more i feel that holiday is so boring for me. I can't always go out :( and most of my friends have started their internship, some going overseas, some working, some are just being very busy with their own life, own friends. I just wanna be free, enjoy whatever i want. But the fact that i will never dare to disobey my mum...will never...that why i am still stuck in this kind of situation when i'm already 20 years old. Sometimes, i feel i'm such a loser and failure, and yet i always complain that i am not happy with this and that but it's all because i am not doing anything at all, for my life, for the life i want. So, can anyone tell me...what should i do? I'm really lost. I'm really lonely.

KNOW WHAT AND IT'S FINALLY FRIDAY!!
This week feel super duper long and I am also super duper tired.
Mentally and physically drained
But this week is just only the FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL!!!!
Oh my gosh, I don't know how I gonna survive for the next 15 weeks of lessons.
I even had the thought of not gong school anymore, this is the first time I dislike school and don't wanna see my classmates. Fuck!
What is happening to me??!?!?!??!?!?!
I feel super stress in the class, I feel super inferior and lousy. WTF :(
Suddenly, all my confidence is gone and this feeling sucks to the max.
Its feel like I am losing myself in this war.


For the first time, I cried in poly!!!!! OMG, I felt so embarrassed and the feeling was so bad.
I don't know what went wrong with me but I can't control my emotions and I started to tear.
I think people who saw me cried, will be judging me already...
What should I do.....haissssss
I never felt this way before and I do feel lost. I just hope I will find myself soon again. HAHA~

But, I think I should stop being so weak. I must get strong and face everything with no fear.
I MUST FIND BACK MY CONFIDENCE AND COURAGE!!

Tomorrow is the day where school gonna start again!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ~
Been busy working for the past few days and finally I can get to rest today! (:
School is starting real soon...next Monday I will start with the school life once again.
Gonna deal with new modules and it seems harder that the previous one, all kinds of problem statements and UT again !!!!!! ><
I'm most worried module will be ROP, need to put red lipstick!!!! & hair must be gel neatly that no hair is to been seen dropping out.
OMG, I think I will look damn retarded and weird as f*ck -__- **WANNA CRY ALREADYYY**
Shall just see how everything goes...hope everything will be fine!
But oh well, I will try my best this semester and maintain my GPA!!!
STUDY HARD and lots of JIAYOUS JIAYOUS :D


For don't know what reasons,  I haven't been sleeping well this few days...for the first time.
Can't fall asleep, and when I do fall asleep I will suddenly wake up. This is so frustrating....
Just hope all this sleeping problems will go away soon ~ (:


And oh ya!!!!!
Tomorrow actually decided to go back to school to have macaroons baking sessions with dear Chef Justin! ^_^
But he not free tomorrow, and so shall wait till next holidays :'( Haissssssssss
I'm not really a fan of macaroons and sometimes I do think that it's too sweet, but they look so beautiful and cute...hahaha!


OKAY, HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GOOD DAY! Till the next time <3 p="">

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
I am back at blogging!! Oh my god, feel so happy and strange after so freaking long!

I think I had been missing in action for nearly 2 years! Sure to say that in this nearly 2 years time, lots of things have changed, and the changes really do freaked me out ~
I am done with secondary school life and now I am studying in polytechnic!
Times flies and I am already a year 2 student, in no time I will be a graduate soon. I have met lots of new friends in poly, and I do love them for bring me happiness, joy, sadness and adventures throughout the days we spent together. Life in poly sure is different.

I think I am a changed person now and sometimes I do miss the 'old' me whenever I read my old posts. In the past, I always say things that just come into mind, not afraid of anything. However, now...I keep lots of things to myself...sometimes way too much. I'm starting to feel afraid and should I say I have become a coward.... :'( I have seen a lot in polytechnic life, lose a lot of things and gain lots of things too.
But after all, I'm still trying to be a better person.
Still trying.