HELLO!! I'M BACK HERE! ANYONE MISSED ME ???? ><

It's finally the holidays and this year gonna be my year 3 for my poly life! THE LAST FREAKING YEAR!!!
That's surprisingly fast...i thought. I cant believe i have survived for the 2 years :p
I just hope that my results for my UT3 will be fineeee and goooodddd, hohohoh ><


Holiday is here and i should be happy...but the more i grow up, the more i feel that holiday is so boring for me. I can't always go out :( and most of my friends have started their internship, some going overseas, some working, some are just being very busy with their own life, own friends. I just wanna be free, enjoy whatever i want. But the fact that i will never dare to disobey my mum...will never...that why i am still stuck in this kind of situation when i'm already 20 years old. Sometimes, i feel i'm such a loser and failure, and yet i always complain that i am not happy with this and that but it's all because i am not doing anything at all, for my life, for the life i want. So, can anyone tell me...what should i do? I'm really lost. I'm really lonely.